The Motherhood Trap.
Everybody and everything became more important than me:
- saving the fruit for the kids because they need it more than me.
- scrimping on the grocery bill by eliminating things I like to eat for lunch.
- frantically hopping in and out of the shower as Liza screamed at my feet.
- falling into the interwebz once the kids were asleep just to zone out and sit on my butt.
- keeping the kids' rooms so neat and clean but my clothes and belongings are a mess.
- I literally stopped reading books because I didn't like how I can do nothing else until I have ravenously finished the book in as little time as possible.
Basically, I stopped doing things that are good for me because it just seemed like one more thing on my to-do list.
I'm trying to do better.
My first big step is to focus on the food I eat. Food is my fuel and I expend a lot of energy. So, I need to eat plenty of healthy foods to fuel my body. It seems so logical, especially considering the fact I feed my children fresh and whole foods all.day.long so their bodies and minds can run in their optimal state.
My body deserves that respect too and since I began paying attention to making sure I eat well-balanced meals with plenty of protein and dark leafy greens for my iron levels....I feel so much better and I have much more energy. Duh.
Now, my goals are:
1. Continue my new habit of showering at night.
2. Reading books again.....and changing my habit of obsessing until the book is complete.
3. Find better things to do with my time after the kids asleep at night.
4. Keep my room neat and tidy and actually put away my clothes so they aren't a big wrinkly mess which relegates me back to the t-shirts and jeans because I'm too lazy to iron.
I thoroughly enjoyed my delicious green smoothie made of lots of spinach, a banana, frozen mangos and peaches and local honey.
Maybe that pile of my clothes in the background will get folded soon.
I suppose that could become my new nighttime activity.